What will change when you question the ‘musts’ and ‘shoulds’ and all the other rules you framed to get by in life? Giving yourself permission sounds like taking the easy way out. But it is, in fact, making a hard choice: choosing what you are called to do versus what you think you should.
It might not be easy to change your ways of being, but I encourage you to keep this question in mind. Return to it in your free time or on your day off. What do you need to give yourself permission to do, chef? And tune in for an answer.